I was running out of time. I wish it would just stop! A few more nights and a couple of days before the next full moon. I found a new habbit of leaving my room and grabbing a pillow to lay outside of James bedroom. I don't think he ever notices anything anymore. I only ever do this when it's getting close to the time that I dred with all my heart. But being near him caused me to relax. Knowing he's on the other side, safe and sound. From my other self. The one that I lock away underground when she tries to surface. I hate her more than anything. More than Voldemort! At least I can stand against him. But this! I have no defense against this! And I most certainly will not be drugged all my life! I twich as my eye sight sharpens along with my hearing. As time goes on, my other senses grow along with it. Soon I hear a door open at the top of the stairs. I pray that whoever it is, they go down them and away from me. "Crystal...?" a quiet Remeus mumbles. My prayers, like every other full moon night, go unanswered. I nod my head slightly but don't dare look up. I hear a sigh and shortly after he speaks again, "Come. I have something to show you."
We walk outside and into the back forest, very close to my hideout on full moons. I don't like where any of this is going. Literally. "Now Crystal," he begins in that, 'I'm more experienced and higher than you and I'm your father' tone, "I know you don't know much about what you're going through. Therefore, as much as I don't want to, I thought it would be best to set cameras up in your hideout. The only one that can access them is you. And you don't have to watch! It's just there if... you... want to... know..."
"Thanks." I said so softly that even if there were a thousand people around, he'd be the only one to hear.
Time went by and the full moon passed. I woke to being inside my hideout, but the door was wide open. I still had clothes on hat werent ripped up. I remember walking up the steps and emerging above ground. It looked calm all around. Like nothing happened. But I knew something had. Because when I made it to the house, Remeus was all over me with questions. Appearently some muggle had disappeared last night. Someone named Sandra. If my research was right, she is a friend of Anthony. I immediately came to the conclusion that I killed her. I grabbed my hands to my head and fell down right where I had been standing. "Crystal!" That was Remeus.
"I did it. why cant a remember anything at all this time? I must have killed her. I'm a beast. I'm the worst. I'm vile. I should just go and die now..." Over and over, horrible things went through my head.
"Crystal, that's nonsense! You're not a monster. We don't know if it was you!" He shuffled closer. I couldn't stand his presence anymore! It's his fault that I'm like this! "Get away from me!" I growled. It couldn't even be called a humans noise. The hate and deep disgust could only belong to an animal!
"What's going on? Crystal! Are you ok?" That was James. He ran to me and slid by me and fussed all over me to check for blood or bruises. He hadnt even hesitated. I didn't have enough time to warn him when he reached me. But unlike Remeus, I felt calmer when he was close by. But being calm is a luxury for normal and humane people. Not me. "James, I'm dangerous, I've killed someone. Go now! Go far away!"
He stopped his fussing and gently moved my head onto his lap and forced me to look at him as his head hovered over mine. "Are you talking about Sandra? I'm sure your not the one to blame," he began to stroke my hair softly as he spoke even softer to let it sink in, "I mean look at yourself. There's no blood on you, or even dirt. Theres no way it was you. You probably stayed in your safe house."
"The door was open when I woke up."
Remeus found his voice again with his thought, "Lets check the cameras."
And so we did. All of us. It turns out that the girl stopped by my hideout, opened it and went inside while the moon was high. But all she found was a sleeping girl, me. She left horrified and the door was left open. I dont think she noticed me, because as soon as she noticed I was a person, she bailed quickly.
"I'm innocent. I am innocent. James! I'm innocent!" I hugged him tightly, over joyed with this news!
"Why are you so surprised? Did you not believe me before the videos?"
"It wasn't you who I doubted."
"Crystal. This means more than you think." sayed Remeus.
"He's right Crystal."
"What do y'all mean?" I was confused at their sudden seriousness. Why cant they just be happy for me.
"Well theres two things. One is I'm sure that Sandra went to tell the muggle police theres a girl underground in the woods, but a few spells can fix that..." said Remeus.
"The other thing is, you didnt change. Somehow, you controled it."
He was right. Both were right. Then we all embraced each other and called mom to tell the good news. She told me that I am gonna have a new future ahead of me now. Now I really couldnt wait for the future to come. Time could keep going, and I wouldn't feel like dying with every second. My prayers were actually answered.